I have liked, alongside of my husband, to take what we hear on Sunday and have it flow into our Monday and Tuesday and the rest of the week to come.
That being said, the current series has been following me throughout these days and has been challenging me not only in my view of prayer but in how I and we actually pray.
The sermon two Sundays ago was about making 'Big Audacious Prayers' and I talked about
that one HERE > if you are interested.
This past Sunday, our pastor talked about Vague and Boring prayers. Or rather having the opposite of vague and boring prayers.
And it hit me deeply, all the while coinciding with what we've been learning in our women's bible study.
I can't help but think, all week, over and over, not only what are the prayers I am praying - but are they prayers that excite God or are they prayers that bore him because they are things that I could accomplish on my own. Are they prayers that demand faith in who God is or are they safe prayers that allow for me to remain comfortable where I'm at.
Because 'who knows' as our Esther bible study stressed. Who knows why I am where I am. Who knows what God is going to do. Who knows the life he is going to have me live. Who knows the ways in which I am prayerfully going to touch lives for him. Who knows the situations I'll encounter and the people I will cross paths with. Who knows! So why not pray great things to our great God? - Because HE KNOWS!!
He doesn't have to answer my big audacious prayers, my prayers that excite, but oh man, if he does, and when he does answer some of them - how neat, how amazing will it be to be able to point my finger at him saying this was all you God, how humbling and how awestruck will it be to fall to my knees in gratitude of his answering of prayer.
As was talked about in the sermon this past Sunday - I think God wants to hear big prayers, hear exciting prayers, so that he can amaze us with his answers.
Because if you don't pray prayers that stretch you then there's 'no element of faith and if there's no element of faith there's no element of the miraculous.'
You can listen to the full sermon but clicking the previous quote and choosing the 'Vague and Boring' sermon.
And as I continue to think about this and about my prayers I wonder what holds me back, what am I afraid of in praying big things, what keeps my prayers from being deeper and more authentic, from being sincere and transparent?
Because I struggle. I struggle at times with feeling like a burden to God, like he has bigger things to answer. I struggle at times with thinking it's selfish to ask things of God. I struggle at times with going through life and not even realizing days and months are passing by and my prayers have been repetitive and easy during that time.
I don't know.
I don't know why I have this unease and hesitancy at times with prayer.
But I do know one thing. God is continuing to draw me to him and to draw me to a deeper level with him and I continue to open my heart to him with this praying about my prayers, praying that I continue to come before him with the longings of my soul.
Do you pray Vague and Boring prayers? Or do you pray prayers that excite and awaken amazement? If not, what's holding you back?
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